Decisions

In life, there are decisions. Always. Lately for me they have been whether to buy Warhammer 40 000 Daemonhunter Miniatures or continue with Tau Empire. Now, however, I have a new smaller decision ahead concerning a bit different subject; Where should I live? Basically I have three options; Kuala Lumpur (Malaysia), Hong Kong or Finland. Each have their sides, but right now I'm sick of jumping from one place to another so I'd prefer staying in Malaysia.

So the decision has been already made? No. I have to consider social relations. Fuck. Life without social relations eventually ends to apathy, but on the other hand, it is so much easier to "jive" when you don't have any family or other than personal and work-related responsibilities to take care of. General consensus is that the latter option is naive, but I don't really know. I'm just tired of the hectic of "traveling" and moving. I've moved all my life as far as I can remember, mainly due to my parents.

The thing about working abroad is that eventually (sooner than you think) you want to settle down. I don't know why the hell running around the globe appeals to some people, but for me, if you haven't settled down for at least a while, you never experience the small details which really makes life worth living. Yeah, you can enjoy some parties, exotic girls, diarrhea and all the other crap related to traveling in not more than just few months. But what about the local communities, "underground" food culture, small shops you can't find in any other way than by luck and knowing at least 20 people. Those are the things I travel and work abroad for. And right now I'm getting into them slowly already in Malaysia, so moving again doesn't appeal a damn bit to me.

Funny enough, right now the decision about this seems to be entirely in my hands. No matter what will be my choice, some people will get pissed or unhappy in some way, but I don't know if I'm actually up for such humanity anymore - to try to please everyone else. Would be best to think about myself for change, big time.

If one thinks this post was too personal, get a grip. Everyone's pissed about moving, and anyone who was required (or opted) to move constantly can relate and feel how stupid it feels. You can't get anything nice & permanent cause you're about to move, neither can you waste your money on partying or passing time 'cause you need to save for your new settlement.

"Moving! Fuck yeah! Coming again, to save the mother fucking day yeah. Moving, FUCK YEAH! Freedom is the only way yeah!"*

*sang in a tune of "America, Fuck Yeah" from the Animation; Team America: World Police.